Monday, March 22, 2010

well, i don't have to go after all.
mixed emotions...
I got to let go...

ps.i still wished i had a chance...but i know

Yellow

I just realised i have a little over 10 days left before i go.
Well, i'm really prayin that i dont really have to leave after all...
anyways had a really great time tonight.
lets hope we'll have more get aways soon:)

ps.just remember all the times we had together.

shadows feel an empty heart...

Sometimes things dont always just appear so simple and naive.
maybe all u knew was just the surface.
Well, people always judge me based on my character and attitude.
honestly i'm really alright with people judging me but do u really know what i'm going through?
sometimes people make comments before even knowing the full story, but if u had been through what i have been.
it would be totally different.
Every time i'd ask u to forgive me and perhaps other things , you'd always bring him in.
asking me why i haven forgiven him all these while.

Maybe the real truth is that i have.
it took me a really long time to even decide to do it.
nights after nights i would just sit down on my bed in the dark and just start tearing.
DID U EVEN KNOW HOW I FELT AT THAT TIME.
Everyone's talking about how much they hate backstabbers.
Well at least know i can tell u i had a fair share of being back stabbed and having the person i hold so close to my heart being taken away.
sometimes even the simplest things can make u melt down...

some times just because i don't say or even mention doesn't mean that i'm alright with it.
DID U EVEN KNOW HOW LONG I TOOK TO FINALLY LET GO...
WHY DO U ALL JUST KEEP COMMENTING AND SAYING STUFF...
the real fact is that i haven really actually gotten over her...
i'd walk pass the place we used to go and i'll just reminiscence of the times we spent together...
and after that i'll just wipe way the tears....
i cired out so many times, let house to cool down and to get a breath, even thought of just ending it so so many times....

it isnt why i wannna forgive him...
when i heard abt what he did...
it just broke my heart....
what happenned to the girl i knew...
the girl i could trust....

sometimes forgivin isnt always so easy...
i haven told her i'm leavin yet, i'm still thinkin...
i guess i'd just leave quietly....

ps.. i hope u understand.

Aint got much time left...

Well, some off u guys might know what my title means.
for those who dont its alright. You'll find out 10 mins before i go.
Well, cried all i wanted begged all i wanted. Stayin positive.

On a lighter note, at least i went to ikea today for dinner since its been so long since i had dinner there.
came home really shacked...
tuesday maybe badminton or gym with the shingz ppl:)

ps.. i'd go pass the places we used to walk by and just reminiscence the times we spent together in each other's arm.

Cross-roads..

Well, this few days since the start of the week has been great.
Well thats because i got a new phone and stuff.

Today has been really tiring for me...
cycled from home to boon lay and back...
got knocked down by a car today though, should have just bleed to death
but i got away kindoff unhurt, just a few scratches there and there.


Ps. u haven been online for days, i texted u but u didnt reply. i miss u